Unpredictable...

Is just 3 weeks time things had happened just like a rocket speed. I push myself to the very high end but pulling myself down again to the beginning. I never think that things will happen in this way, although there is something going on, i choose to mind my own business, happily & willingly being a "spy". But after some time, this thing start bothering me, day n nite, sad & happy.

I'm forcing everything to end on 1/8/10 night, because there wouldn't be any "miracle". Love can stop but Friendship never end.

Sometime really no words, just now sitting behind mum, she said:" ting, all your friends no longer single, but u r. Told u earlier must diet, if not you will not have even 1 in future."
These words lead my tears in heart but speechless.

Honestly i can't tink of to have a good love life, but i really need happy life, just a simple life with my happy family, friends around, laughter......
Really a happy life which i really need to carry on my hand....

开心。。。

这两天呆在家，心情很好，很悠闲。。

真的非常开心，虽然只是几句话，但是我却又拥有了另一个特别日子在等待。。。
虽然还是很遥远，但是是令我开心的一件事。。

绣快回来了，真开心，又可以谈通宵了，哈哈！

每天都想唱歌，分分秒秒都想听歌，真的不能少了音乐。。。呵呵

long time......

it's been long time that i din get to blog any words here... quite busy with my working life and tired of my free time... working hard to utilise my time... to fulfil my emptiness...

Last Sunday juz came back from Melaka trip... it's a very enjoyable trip... get chance to see 10 minutes fireworks... fireworks bring along my tears... i miss u... without any reason...i juz can't control... stop messaging, stop asking u.... but i can't stop finding latest news about u...

I'm scared to view and to know anything about u but i still keep myself updated... i'm trying... i really tried... sorry to say that.... i failed...

i feel the happiness for a short year... i'm happy for no reason... i do everything with no hope in return... i'm leaving with tears... missing u with tears n pain... in the end i juz hope that u r happy... n i know u r now... thanks....

爱？还是依赖？

回来了第二星期，真的真的没有开心过。很想知道自己想要什么，想着什么。。唯一很清楚的是真的很想念爸妈。。50天后又可以回家了，非常开心。。。

两个星期闷闷不乐想了想。。还是很想念。。很想念。。昨晚又做梦到同一个他，其实真的有爱情存在还是依赖性的想念？真的很想解谜 。。。

真的很想找回快乐。。。想要做些自己喜欢做的事情。。。想要唱歌。。唱歌。。。唱歌。。。

back here again...

Last night i've reach KL again... when the time i turn back and look at pa ma, my tears drop...really miss them alot and dun wish to be so far with them... when i'm in plane, keep on thinking the moment being with pa ma and ko... really happy being with them, really feel comfortable staying at home...

the moment when i'm waiting for flight and sitting alone in the bus to kl sentral, think back the moment which hard for me to forget... is still pain in my heart... it's 4 months ago... better to forget..

Miss the moment hanging around with chien, lin, yii, chen n sing... never forget our laughter, our repeated jokes, haha! hope to see u all soon...

Feel like going back home... really want to go back home....

:)

Finally i've back to Kuching for 5 days. Really excited and feel happy when i reach airport and can't wait to see all my siss, lin, chien, yii, sing & chen. We have dinner at BASAGAR..quite romantic dining place... this is the 1st time 6 of us can gather after form 5... really can't forget that moment ... really hope can meet them quite often but seem like everyone have decided where to settle down, lin in UK, yii in AUS, sing in SIN, chen in Penang, me in KL and lastly chien in Kch, 6 different places... feel relax and happy staying at home... can sleep well, no stress...starting tomorrow i will spend my time with papa mama until the time i back to KL which is next sunday... hope that day will come slowly...

25/1/2010

My 2nd bday celebration this year end. Really happy and enjoy with friends beside, siew&ric, yee& fish, yan&vs, yun&will, lin&tm,me&wm. We are couple of the night. Competing among all. Every couple sang a nice song. During voting time, they all play a fool on us which vote me&wm is the worst singing couple so punish us to dance.haha! End up voting for winner also me&wm. Really confuse right? Is my friends' action K? Must understand.haha!

Thanks for the night, thanks for the present and also thanks for the cheesetarts. Really hope all the wishes i make will come true. Thanks to Shieng, a voice i like so much. i've listening to ur recording for the bday song, just now yee display during 12am for me. I can recognise ur voice. It's touch!!!

1st thanks to han ming who msg me at 12am just now. And also another friend. I can't believe i still will get ur msg around 12am like last year. Although i feel scared to rcv feel sad if i don;t rcv, but anywhere when i rcv ur msg i feel happy n suprised.

I really enjoy the night with u all! love u all my friends!