haiz.....

yesterday during working time, i receive 7 calls from papa & mama. i know they worry about me. Every call i answer i cried. I really wish to go home but papa mama say try to work 1st bcoz there is no vacancy in kuching. i feel myself very useless because until this age i still make them very worry about me. i really don't know what should i do. sleepless again last night. even when i fall asleep i will wake up every one or two hours. I thought i will feel better after talking with Yan last night. WHY IS STILL THE SAME? can i insist to go back or i should stay here continue my work?