28/6/09

Last night we went "steak house" for dinner as a farewell with siew, a new place near our house, quite a nice place. After dinner we went home and change, to the place that i wish for so long. haha! Clubbing at sanctuary. Really enjoy and happy. Another time fooling around with siew and thian. I really miss that moment dancing, drinking, laughing, and joking with both of them last night, long time never have such feeling again. When almost reach the end, my tears suddenly drop, is she in my heart not him. This morning wake up i ask siew actually did she know that what is the reason i cry last night, thanks my friend, till the end you are the only one that understand me. She say that because she is leaving. That's true! But i know if i ask others sure everyone will say that is because of him. she just leave my house and went home.....

爱情和解？

最近都听到爱情的烦恼。有的拍拖很久，出现问题，有的很幸福。有些分手了，脱难，伤心，解脱。有些开始对某人有感觉了，但是却不讲，矛盾。真的真的种种问题。

我呢？开始解脱了，慢慢放开了，一天比一天开心，很久没有想念朋友了，不因为他流泪了，但前两天看报纸，说那里的H1N1很严重，开始有点犹疑要不要传个简讯。回到家里躺在床上，想了想，决定不传了，因为不管我传不传，朋友都会小心的，只是多余的一个问候，有时自己觉得简单的关心，但朋友可能又认为是超越了。

开始又找回我生活的快乐了，好像放下一些东西，整个人轻松，开心。爱情不是每个人玩得起的，我就暂时不玩了，很怕。哈哈！现在也没有资格可以喜欢别人，就尽情享受我的快乐旅程吧！

feel like my new beginning

Yesterday go meet siew. shopping and talking with her. Really feel missing her when she leave on 10/7. Although is just 1 year plus, but will be missing her so much. haha!

Night time went little bally with siew and fish. we chat a lot there, reach home we continue chatting and joking until 4am. i told both of them that 1 thing i wanted to let them know. I really stop being stubborn towards "friend", trust me. I know they did believe me. I start to have new way of thinking for my own life. I wish to be happy everyday with my life no matter working or enjoying. i start to feel happy with my job now. Start to let go, start to accept new thing.

Honestly i feel a bit worry meeting thian today. But after meeting her i feel very happy. She look happier and prettier. Be happy always my friend. I really wish all my friends happy always. YEAH!!!

10/6/09

刚刚知道了她的消息，可能有些难题，但是相信她会越来越开心。虽然没有勇气问她任何事情，但也渐渐在身边朋友听来。

我的却有点矛盾应该出现吗？可能F觉得我很小气，不大方吧！以前开始我都觉得我一直纠缠在我不应该呆的地方，一直觉得自己不应该出现在他们人群里。就像来临的一天，可能我的出现会令朋友们无法谈天。

我做人越来越自卑，一直觉得自己是朋友当中的后备。我是执著，但是不是朋友，你们想象中的执著。你们觉得的执著可能是不好，对我可能是解脱，我开心时我知道的，可能只是短暂可是我一直很珍惜。不开心时，我尽量自己忍耐，或流泪解除。

漂亮的女生比较受欢迎，肥胖的女生往往向边站。哈哈！

8/6/09

昨晚突然又做梦到那位朋友，做梦到他打电话给我谈天。

订了机票9月回家9天，非常开心，觉得很难等，希望明天就回。刚刚告诉爸爸我今天放工时跌到，爸爸很紧张一直问，告诉他我一点事情也没有，他才放心。

我今天放工一个人走路回家，听着歌，想了很多事情，眼泪流了几滴。还是想念朋友的点点滴滴。后来决定要读烹饪了，希望自己未来的路走得更开心。

可能朋友越来越少，爱情永远没有终点，但我每次告诉自己我永远拥有的就是家人。

我希望自己的生活有一天是不需要眼泪的，不需要妒嫉，不需要害怕，慢慢开始找回我的快乐。

fish birthday outing

Yesterday we went taman pertanian, a place which is so big that we walk for so long. around 1.30pm we ride bicycle. abit scared, abit exciting, but so hot. haha!





















really enjoy this outing. although it is hot and tired but happy. hope there is some other outing waiting for us.

7/6/09

5/6/09 night we went four happy season to celebrate fish birhtday. A nice and special place to us. we choose winter which is really cold to us.











Everyone took photo with birthday guy. He wear the shirt that we bought for him. nice? these days birthday guy like to take photo so much. haha!























We really enjoy at this place.......