The time now is saturday 1.19am. i'm still awake listening songs and blogging.
Last night went pasar malam and also shopping with yan. Both of us talk and laugh a lot. Happy moment last for only 3 hours and i'm turning back to my bad mood. I don't have much words to express but my tears fliying non-stop. I don't know who to explore to because i know i can't and i got no right to force anyone listening to me.
The night before yesterday i dream about F. it's so sudden and i also can't believe with it. Dream that i go back home go dinner with him at Point One. Ever been a memorable place to me. Still can flash back the environment there. Did contact in these 2 days, and hope to meet all my friends in Kuching very soon.
Yesterday evening papa did call me around 2.30pm but because of working i din get to answer his call. called papa 6.30pm after work, but he say is over already so nevermind. at last he say because feel bored so call me to talk. When i heard of this i feel that very guilty, sad and feel myself very useless, papa call me and wish to talk to me but even a simple call i also din get to answer.
Suddenly think of going back home. really miss papa, mama and koko so much. 12 days to go then i can be with them.
I control myself to not release anything about my feeling to anyone of my friends. Everyone have their own problems so better don't disturb them with my rubbish. haha!
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